Sorry I haven't been a good little blogger, but there is some life shifting going on and I've been a bit busy. I love it when life gets to a stopping point. Then you do a bit of praying, and then our Holy Father answers. Whether small or larger or even completely how you want it, he does this on his own terms. It's his call, but for your purpose. Every step. After such a very long time, I will be moving myself and my kids into our own home. Just us. I will not be told otherwise, nor bullied into anything else.
My home will be serenity. It will be small and within a crowed neighborhood, but for us it will be home. For the first time, my angels, will have their own room and space. For the last five years, we have lived with my parents in either one room or the other on top of each other. I am so thrilled, but into the apartment is going to take work, money, and of course my sidekick...drama. Nothing good ever comes without bad, because at all times there is a test and a lesson. Something is always being learned from every moment. God Bless LIFE.
Hopefully, God willing, we will be in there just in time for school to start. The biggest hurdle will be getting my lights turned on. The manager gave me some resource numbers that will hopefully help with that. I decided to purchase all used furniture and remodeled them to my taste. Luckily, I have a few things left over from my other homes. So, that will save me some money. On to other things.
Yesterday, was a horrible and stressful day. First of all, the night before Gia cries half the night. She was complaining about her legs hurting. This is almost a nightly battle with her. Then around 3am I got to the bottom of it. She missed Anna. Thank God Anna's Dad really doesn't get her much, because my kids are hopeless without her. They just don't understand the situation.
That morning everyone had the red ass. I didn't eat breakfast, running on barely four hours of useless sleep, and tore up from the floor up. The kids were jumping on my bed and they knock down a picture frame. The glass was sticking out of it just perfect enough that when I tried to move Anna she bucked back in anger and fell on it. Thank you Jesus that she only cut a small part of her head and year. It could of been so much worse! That child started POURING blood. I have never seen another human bleed so much so fast. I freaked the freak out. I went to hollering for my mother. She was in bed, and we get to the hospital in a few minutes after. I am covered in blood, and Anna is in her diaper covered in blood down to her toes.
The staff checks me in at 12:15pm. They send a nurse out to check Anna and we are sent to waiting in the waiting room for almost 35 minutes. Yes, you read that right. More people come in and they go on back. Come to find out it was a kid with a sore throat. WTF! They finally take her back and sew her head and ear up. The conversation I hear the doctor discussing disturbed me. They do not have the correct size anything to work with. She started sewing her up then put germ killer on it. She screamed like she was deadened. It was so heartbreaking. I just started crying and they acted like I was a WUSS. Ok. You guys see this crap all the time. That is my BABY.
So for now on...NO JUMPING ON THE BED...EVER.
She's gone now staying the night with her "Father" He is still Donor #2. Instead of coming to get her last night he went to a concert. No doubt he's girlfriend was with him. He thinks he's so secret about shit, but he always get caught. Today he was trying to make rules about the new house. Are you freaking serious? He will be lucky to walk through the door let alone function in my house. You hear me?? MY HOUSE. Be Blessed!
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