Days of fighting with kid's pool is finally done. Never seen anything to act so crazy. So a few more hours to let it warm up it time to have fun with my babies!

Summer is Finally Here

Summer has finally arrived, and it's almost non stop here at the house. I have had my sister's kids and now my step sister kid and I love it. I love spending time with them, and see how they have grown. They change so much during the year that you really have to keep up with them. My sister's kids are pre-teens and they are starting to get a little sassy, but I remember what it was like in those days. The pic is Dylan in bed wearing his Dragon hooded towel. He is now to be know as Spikey...it's so cute when he corrects me.


This is my beautiful niece Jasmine. She has really been a big help to me. I can't really do much anymore, and she helps me out with the kids. I have a lot of trouble with my weight and my joints/back. I don't really tell people how much pain I am in. I don't want to be the person that always complains, so I keep it to myself. Anyway, she is so sweet. No matter what I ask her to do she does it for me. She's suppose to come help me next week to move into the other room so I will have more room, and it will be much cooler in there. We are about to burn up in this room.




My garden is growing out of control and I plan to get out there next week while the kids are gone and weed it and cut the grass. My sunflowers are almost as big as Gia. I have learned a lot, and plan to keep growing things. I just wish I had more energy and not in so much pain. I can't really stay out there as long as I want to. I would be out there all day...lol. My treasure hunt for bottles is still a no go. I made a huge mess in the back yard. It's just too dangum hot out there right now. I plan to just grade out what over left glass out there and plant some wildflowers to cover the ground. I thought that they didn't get high, but I have a hummingbird plot for my Mamow and it's coming on up.

I'll get some pics up soon. Maybe this afternoon when it gets cooler. I seriously can't wait til all the rooms are done and we get settled in. I think I am just going to let Dylan stay in Union again next year. It will give me time to really get my crap together. If I rush it now I will fail. I am not ready to be alone yet I think. It will also give me a chance to save money. I will need about $5000 to settle down somewhere. Wish I could fix a lot of my problems before I am alone in this world. It is already lonely enough. Well that's enough for now. Talk soon.

Welcome to Summer

Yesterday my baby boy had his first school program. He graduated from Kindergarten. Really I guess it was a practice because he'll be back in there next year. I am doing that because it will be best for him so he will do better. I believe that he was a little too young this year.

The program went perfect and he did really great. Only one person messed it up and I am dealing with that now. I will post more pics and videos when I can get youtube to behave.

This morning we woke up at 9am...wow! Poor Dylan has is waking up feeling a little under the weather, but both are doing their morning routine. Gia is excited to find my coffee cup. "MMMM coffee!!" Dylan is watching Garfield and I am about to cook breakfast cause Gia said "My tummy says I'm hungry". HAHA. I love my kids more that anything on this planet, and now is their time.

I have had my time. So, now I will make everything about them. I am going to find a church for Dylan because out of no where he loves Jesus. Perfect timing cause I want to get closer to God too. I am going to find Gia a school for the fall, and myself a new town and life. It is the only way to escape the devil in this one. I am hoping he's full of mud, but he's not. Ape crazy is what he is and I need to get myself away from all this drama and start completely over somewhere. But....where?

Sunday full of peace....so far

This weekend has been a rare weekend. I actually slept...alot. I got to do mostly what I needed, and right now I am pain and stress free. Of course the kids are not home yet, and that will rise a bit, but you know I think I've figured out a few things. The people in my life are the ones that are making things miserable for me. Toxic, unforgiving f*ck heads that hate their lives and want to make everyone around them hate theirs. Sorry it's not going to happen. I have spent enough time wasting my energy on these people, and feeling guilty. No more time for me. Finally It's all clear. It's time for me to have my own life. No matter what I have to do I am going to live.

I am going to make plans to be about out here by August 1st. Alone in my own place where I feel comfortable. A place where my kids can make a good life for themselves. I am going to cut so many strings, and if they need me they know where I am. Everyone will need me before I need them. That's the way I like it. I have so many projects I want to work on. And as always, if it is is to be it's up to me!