Old Fart Olympics

Seems lately that I am starting to settled into my "Old Fart" stage of life. I am almost out of my thirties. I am gaining the Madea pack my 9mm stage, and my give a damn no longer gives a flying f*ck. So there. I think it will be a nice stage for me. Not sure many other people will appreciate it, but as always I'm not on Earth to make their day ;-)

So the latest is that we are suppose to move into our apartment sometimes this week/weekend. I was hoping to be settled by the first day of school. Who knows I might be. I have different feeling about this, but it's for the best. We need our own space and I need my own sanctuary. It been so long since I've had that. A peaceful one at that, and I'll fight for it I believe. It's only going to be a stepping stone. My son has been talking about moving to Meridian. Depends on where I can find a job. I got to get another car as well. I have to live for them while including my own happiness. No need to spend it unhappy and grow old and bitter. I have seen that come to life in my own Mother.

Open house for school is this Thursday. Gia managed to get the same teacher cause she moved on up to Kindergarten. Some wise guy decided it was a good idea that the kids no longer take naps. Wow, can't wait to how this works out. She's been sick like me and has been asleep since 1pm. We all have the crude. I believe it to be said that the summer crude is much worse than the winter crude. So, Thursday we will meet the teachers and see their rooms. It's a lot more peaceful this time around. There is no Joe/Charlie drama. Joe is on the road, and Charlie has chilled out a lot. I will actually get to walk in a take my time, and take some pics. ;-)
It's gonna be hard for them to get back on a schedule, guess I'll start that tonight.

Monday will be Gia's first time to ride the big girl bus with her brother. I know she will be so happy to do that. I guess while they are in school I'll be working on the house. I swear I am going to have to start from scratch, but good thing with that I can make my home my own. All my own taste and how I like it. Just let someone try to move in . HAHAHAHAHAH I don't think so baby.

Maybe once we are all settled in I'll get some creative flows going. I have tons of stories stuck up in my head ready to burst out. I really don't think I'll take my laptop down there, but there always the handy old notebook. Work it out there, then transfer. I would love to do that full time, but looks like I'm gonna have to find something else quick. I can't always rely on others, and enough time has gone by that it's MY time now. I can't wait to see where it takes me.

So a story just popped in my head of a young white girl taking a job in a blues club down in Old New Orleans and she falls for a popular blues player married to the owner. ......Guess I'll get started on that one next. Time to start birthing these people to the creative world!

Be Blessed!

Summer's End

Summer is slowly closing down and so many things have changed. Of course the kids both grew their usual foot during summer, but plenty of things on the home front has changed.

First being is that I am single. At least according to myself. I recently found out that donor #2 was seeing the same chick that he messed around with while I was pregnant. So, that's a done deal.

On a happier note, my older two kids got to spend a whole week with their father. He drives over the road, so he only comes home like once a month. He took them to the Choctaw Indian fair here in Neshoba, and they had a blast. Bought them tons of fair foods, rode rides, and even won a few prizes. I have to admit it really made me sad that I couldn't do something like that for them, but hopefully my time is coming.

Here are a couple of recent pics:

Having fun while Bubba and Sissy were gone. 

My nephew William's fifth birthday party. 

Annalissa

Wanting to grow up way too fast. She is so smart. 

Anna's Aura

Words to live by:-)

Wonder if he knows you don't wear blue underwear with white shorts. lol

Another shot of Gia and William

At our small holiday. 

Smurf he won at the fair. 

My little cornfed baby. :-)

My niece Haley and Gia

Now that summer is coming to an end, we are getting school supplies and clothes. Their Dad have gotten most of it. There is still ton to get. I was hoping to be in the apartment by now, but it just hasn't worked out just yet.

Tomorrow, we will have Dylan's 8th birthday party. I tell you, when you have kids, you have to enjoy every single second. It goes by too damn fast for my taste. He is getting a Sonic MP3 player, the Spore game, and tons of PS2 that we are still waiting to come in. He is old enough now that he can go to the bakery and order he own cake. I hope it will be a happy day. We need a few of those. God willing I'll get to take them to the Neshoba fair, but their needs will come first. 

If you are reading this, and if you pray.....please pray I find another job...asap!

Blessings!

Summer So Far

I haven't really been a busy little blogger. Been really a hot and boring summer, but that's kinda the point right?

The kids attended there Mamaw Divine's church's Vacation Bible School. I don't remember the name of the church but it was in Little Rock, MS. Here are the pics.

Gia (in pink) get her award. 

My son Dylan and his cousin Haley

Dylan and Haley in the purple shirt. 

Me holding Anna, Gia, Dylan, Aunt Heather, and her daughter Haley. 

It's always better with ICE CREAM!!

We are in the process of packing and getting ready to move down the street to a new apartment. Just saving up for the hellacious light bill deposit. They should be ashamed! Oh well, it gives me time to get everything in order. I won't discuss the problem here, but a few things will improve there. I will probably be more lonely at time, and I will only have net on my phone. Gonna try to save some serious money. Get back to the real world of working, and get back on my feet.

I am not too fond of the place we are moving too, but it will be rent free for me since my income has currently went in the toliet. It's really sucky here. I am seriously thinking about going back to college and finish my AA degree and finally get a grown up job. Hmm, but what shall I ever be? I tell ya, I was putting in for a job at the local Walmart to take picture of kids. They threw a serious math test at me online, with these three kids trying to kill each other and screaming...kinda like now...there is no hope of looking like you have any bit of education. 

Enough depression, so Saturday my bbf and I went out to Mexican in Philly, and then we watch "MAGIC MIKE". Hmm, the dancing and eye candy was good, but the plot...lordy me. I was bored to tears. It was a horrible plot, horrible filming, and terrible acting. It really reminded me of "Coyote Ugly". Not in a good way, but it also got better when the guys hit the stage. It tickled me to see all these older ladies laughing at the sexy parts and rocking hard in their chair. Not sure if it was of embarrassment like my bbf, or they just couldn't hold their happy in. lol. 

On the home front, donor#2 and I have just come to an agreement to love and not judge. Not to control, but be helpful. No marriage, no living together, each live our own lives. For us it works. We get our space, our free time, and the time we do spend together is really meaningful. No it's not the secret to a happy relationship, but it just works for us. 

So, we are not in July. Dylan will be 8 soon. Where did the time go? We will be going tomorrow night I think to the hotel and let the kids swim, going to the resort to see the fireworks, then we have my sister's son's fifth birthday Wednesday. If you pray, pray for us that our lives improve. It never comes easy, but when it gets here it will be good. 

Coming Soon!....I'll be putting my photography on here for sale and show. Way more videos once I have a minute or two to post them. Blog videos of me are coming, and much more. Stay tuned and BE BLESSED!!!!

You Think They Would Learn

Not sure what I was thinking when I changed my mind to get my tubes ties last year. Fear of being put to sleep was the number one reason. I’m about to be 36 and I am sure I do not want anymore children. I do want another little boy, but until you can elect your gender, I’ll be ok. Three is plenty.

Since Aunt Flo (who I’ve hated for a very long time) is in town, I’m basically locked down to the house. Since having Anna is so bad there is not going anywhere the first couple of days. I wanted to take the kids to build and grow, but my sister has four kids to fight in the store and I didn’t want to stress her out. I’ll just make sure they are up there next Saturday. 

My friend came yesterday and sold a phone to me. I am so very happy to be connected back to the world again. I have really become dependent on a phone. I am going to try to get on where she works. Not sure how I would work it out getting there, but I always seem to find a way. First of all, I got to get the job. I got to get back to work, and I really could care less what the job is at this point. 

She is wanting to plan a trip to New Orleans with her friend later this Fall. I am so game. I really do not care what anyone thinks. I need a freaking weekend to myself. No kids, no man, and just fun. I will have pacify my little caveman hubby to go, cause little man gets jealous….lol. A weekend at the lake should work. The kids, he and I , and our little terror angel. The now walking giggling wrath with six whole teeth to attack you with. Then will giggle at you when you scream. Got to love her.

If not the lake then just a hotel with a pool. Food, relaxation, and maybe some Mommy kool-aid? Nah, cause you know how that goes. Daddy lays there watching sports while Mommy takes over doing my same job but in just a much smaller environment. I am running to stores, fast foods, taking everyone to the bathroom. I am the lifeguard at the pool, and then I got to get everyone bath, calmed down, and to bed. Where is the relaxation in that?  OH poo…I’m just tired, and whooped this weekend.

Daddy is going to the races tonight so I will have Anna tonight. I really needed some sleep last night, but of course the thought of zombies put both the older kids in my bed. So I had my usual two feet. lol. Got to love them. I will get better I know it will. The only way to make that happen is if Mommy goes back to work. It is time. BE BLESSED!

Where is Mommy's Candy?

Everyone has the case of the red a$$, so it's going to be a long day. I'm about to take my candy from the doctor to see if I can ease some of my pain, and nerves. Really need to get on a program with that.


Today, after breakfast, these little monsters are going to help me clean this place. It is in a terrible right mess. My plan is to get about ten bags of crap out the front door. This, of course, is probably going to take us all week, because they get in no hurry listening to me.


Back in the glory days of 1983, if I looked at my elders the wrong way, talked back, or said no there was this bush from hell out in the yard with switches. Ever proper Southern home has one. Each older home automatically has one planted either from elders or God.


My kids have yet to seriously meet Mr. Switch, and don't get me wrong, I do not beat my kids, but I am both Mommy and Daddy and I'm getting run over and I am tired of it.

Even I am guilty of making a big deal out of nothing. Like getting our stuff organized, but dang it's got to be done. I want it done. It is piling up and it makes me crazy. I am trying to make jewelry this morning, and Anna is next to me screaming. Next minute she's on the floor playing. We are all just not morning people. We are seriously off schedule. I understand now back when we were kids, my grandmother would get us up early on the weekends. Put us to doing something. Laying around all day zoning out on stuff is just bad for kids. They will go crazy. Hmmm....yard work. Yeah we got some that needs to be done. Right after I get to throw away tons of stuff. 

Mommy will get back into balance, and these kids will not make me crazy today. I will evoke the truths of the ancestors and cut a limb and wear that booty out if needed. I will be respected and loved.

 I am the MAMA!

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Little Get Away

I decided to put our blog here on the front page. It just takes up too much of my time doing two.


So, we took a little holiday this weekend. We had all the kids and stayed a couple of nights away so they could swim, and relax....it just wasn't relaxing for me AT all. Donor#2, and even though I am grateful cause he footed the bill, decided he would get in bed and not move. That left me four kids to manage, but it went ok. Here are all the pics.

Daddy got me my own little boat and I had a blast!

My big boy is finally not afraid!

Me and Anna Boo, so for no makeup lol. 

My brave girl. Not afraid anymore!

My two second on the alligator. lol She did not trust it. 

Made some waffles on the waffle maker!

His first dive!

Gia and Anna's brother Brandon

Wheeeee

Anna and her Dad with Gia

My beautiful smiling monkie!

This is the life!

Charles and I 

Best day ever Mommy!

We stayed there Friday alone, and I got some rest then. We went to the Golden Moon and the Silver Star. We played a few slots. He did pretty good and I won $20. I told him that in some way I'll have to spend it and I did, that what he didn't just straight up take from me. I wouldn't have done him like that, but that's his way. 


Saturday it was going to just be me and my kids, but his son decided to go. Kinda good cause even though Charles turns back into a 15 year old around him, there is at least a little help. We took at the kids to the hotel and ate some Popeye's. Got to love that. We let them swim a few hours. There were some drifters in the pool that management had to kick out. Very awkward. I don't understand how people have the balls to do stuff like that. As if they are not going to get caught. 


After swimming, I used my cell phone to order pizza and the kids thought that was amazing.  You have got to love kids! After pizza, the kids lost their mind wanting to go get pizza. The idiot actually wanted me to go do that and get out and get him some beer. I said no way it was not happening. Don't care if he got mad. One of the rules of me going this weekend was that he was not suppose to drink and he did. He literally can not go one day without alcohol. I wish he would because that is the man I love. The sober part of him that I never get to see. 


This morning was a little more stressful. Having to get all the kids to the front office to make waffles, then go back and pack everything. I don't really think parents...well Mommies never get to relax when you go somewhere. The same little dramas follow you even when you leave home. People lost their shoes, has missing kidnapped socks and underwear. Motel dryer was expensive and even after an hour it did not dry my bra...Lordy it's was something every three seconds. 


Well this week is Gia last week of Pre-k. She will have a program this Thursday. I am so excited to see her on stage. I am going to start looking for a job this week, and try to start, as soon as, everyone is out of school. I will probably start part time and then become full time when school goes back in session. I am going to save for another car, and then a trailer and some land. Right now that's the plan. If you are reading this, please say a little prayer. Thanks, and Be Blessed!