Here is a photo of the kids last year right before we opened presents. Thanksgiving is now over and the Christmas madness begins. Someone told Dylan Santa wasn’t real so that works out for me. I never really made him believe in him because it’s a lie.
The kids have basically told me what they wanted so now I got to find those items with all the other mommies trying to get same stuff. I don’t have a whole lot of options to get most of it. I hope I luck up and will be able to get it only. I have NO desire to travel and shop right now.
This year is a little different than the ones before. Family doesn’t get together much anymore. We all have our own families and lives, most have homes and I don’t blame them for wanting to enjoy it. I would too. I really hope to be in my own place next year. I will have three kids then, and I will really have to get back to work.
I’ve certainly learned not to depend on anyone. Not that they can’t help, but what if they won’t. I’m not a real father fan. I have no high hopes for the new one. He might be amazing and prove me wrong, but I won’t wait around and find out. I have to provide for my kids and to be honest I rather.
I am hoping to get my Christmas decorations down from storage and turn this room into a small apartment. Might as well, since it will be a long while before I will be able to move. My kids deserve way better than this life.
Joe and I have finally decided to divorce and we agree about the kids. Thank God we don’t have anything else to fight about. He is going to try to get on the ball this month. Maybe we will be divorced by February. I seriously doubt I will remarry. Not to the current Father. He has proven too many times that he is not willing to grow up or change, maybe some men can’t.
As long as he’s a good father and helps me out and we get along I will be happy. I don’t want to love anyone, and I don’t want anyone to love me. I don’t want to share a house, money, cars. I want it all for myself and my kids. The End.
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