It's Been A While

Sorry I haven't been a good little blogger, but there is some life shifting going on and I've been a bit busy. I love it when life gets to a stopping point. Then you do a bit of praying, and then our Holy Father answers. Whether small or larger or even completely how  you want it, he does this on his own terms. It's his call, but for your purpose. Every step. After such a very long time, I will be moving myself and my kids into our own home. Just us. I will not be told otherwise, nor bullied into anything else. 


My home will be serenity. It will be small and within a crowed neighborhood, but for us it will be home. For the first time, my angels, will have their own room and space. For the last five years, we have lived with my parents in either one room or the other on top of each other. I am so thrilled, but into the apartment is going to take work, money, and of course my sidekick...drama. Nothing good ever comes without bad, because at all times there is a test and a lesson. Something is always being learned from every moment. God Bless LIFE. 


Hopefully, God willing, we will be in there just in time for school to start. The biggest hurdle will be getting my lights turned on. The manager gave me some resource numbers that will hopefully help with that. I decided to purchase all used furniture and remodeled them to my taste. Luckily, I have a few things left over from my other homes. So, that will save me some money. On to other things. 


Yesterday, was a horrible and stressful day. First of all, the night before Gia cries half the night. She was complaining about her legs hurting. This is almost a nightly battle with her. Then around 3am I got to the bottom of it. She missed Anna. Thank God Anna's Dad really doesn't get her much, because my kids are hopeless without her. They just don't understand the situation. 


That morning everyone had the red ass. I didn't eat breakfast, running on barely four hours of useless sleep, and tore up from the floor up. The kids were jumping on my bed and they knock down a picture frame. The glass was sticking out of it just perfect enough that when I tried to move Anna she bucked back in anger and fell on it. Thank you Jesus that she only cut a small part of her head and year. It could of been so much worse! That child started POURING blood. I have never seen another human bleed so much so fast. I freaked the freak out. I went to hollering for my mother. She was in bed, and we get to the hospital in a few minutes after. I am covered in blood, and Anna is in her diaper covered in blood down to her toes. 


The staff checks me in at 12:15pm. They send a nurse out to check Anna and we are sent to waiting in the waiting room for almost 35 minutes. Yes, you read that right. More people come in and they go on back. Come to find out it was a kid with a sore throat. WTF! They finally take her back and sew her head and ear up. The conversation I hear the doctor discussing disturbed me. They do not have the correct size anything to work with. She started sewing her up then put germ killer on it. She screamed like she was deadened. It was so heartbreaking. I just started crying and they acted like I was a WUSS. Ok. You guys see this crap all the time. That is my BABY. 


So for now on...NO JUMPING ON THE BED...EVER.


She's gone now staying the night with her "Father" He is still Donor #2. Instead of coming to get her last night he went to a concert. No doubt he's girlfriend was with him. He thinks he's so secret about shit, but he always get caught. Today he was trying to make rules about the new house. Are you freaking serious? He will be lucky to walk through the door let alone function in my house. You hear me?? MY HOUSE. Be Blessed!

Gia's 5th Birthday!

Today was a great day. We celebrated Gia Angelina's fifth birthday. Here are a few pics:

She was so happy to get to eat his head! lol

Granny got her a Barbie where you design her clothes. 

Aunt Heather got her a Disney brush, Tinkerbell nightgown, nail art, and some Barbie puppies to go in the new Barbie doll house.

Mommy got me my very first Barbie doll house!

Here is everyone singing Happy  Birthday along with my brother who shares the same birthday:

Overall, I think she had a nice day. Wish I could have done more, but the later birthdays will be more memorable. Be Blessed!

Still Here

It’s been really busy around here and I haven’t been online much. With my stepfather’s injury and two birthdays this week…it’s a little crazy.

Donor#2 has basically ignored me and we “broke up”, but of course on my child’s fifth birthday today he wants to go to his house and cook hamburgers. I was planning her party for tomorrow, and agreed…but now I just don’t want to go and deal with his crap. I think I will just to make sure it’s final..but he asks who I am with and makes threats. Such a jerk. I really picked a man worse than my ex husband. What I idiot I can be sometimes. 

Anna with home with him yesterday and I got a little sleep. Hard to sleep when you can’t get your situation to leave your brain for more than five minutes. I think the only thing that will heal this wound is time and space. A whole lot of space, but hell I can’t make it here, but here there are no jobs so that’s really the reason. I would like nothing more to just be in a place where the donors would have to board planes to get to us. That might be selfish, but not really. 

So my oldest daughter is five today. We are having her party tomorrow because she always shares her birthday with my brother. She wanted a Justin Beiber cake so I order one for her. Her Aunt came but and gave her gift of a purse filled with makeup and it has not left her side for one second. I really hate they will not be here tomorrow, but at least she offered to have her another party at her house when she gets back from her trip. 

Anna’s birthday is Wednesday and I am going to have her a party that weekend or Monday as well. I have to arrange things by the schedule of my money. That sucks. I also have to arrange things around Anna’s crazy ass father. Like today he knows it’s Gia’s birthday and he don’t know if I have something planned, he just wants to take over the whole day. I seriously hate him, and I don’t know why I let him bully me. That crap has got to stop. 

I have yet to get Anna a present but I will. 

Well I better get ready. Here comes a hellish day…I just know it. Why oh Why? 

BE BLESSED!